Well, I figured I should write a bit about what has been happening for the last ten years or so, and where I am at currently.
About twelve years ago I took some pictures which upended my life.
At the time I was seeing someone in a long distance relationship.
Her big kink was voyeurism and one of my big kinks is exhibitionism.
So we got along well. She would arrange for women to come torture and fuck me while she watched.
Usually remotely, sometimes in person
A good example is when she had me gang banged and then had the women who fucked and or fisted me autograph my body.
We did a show, where J fucked me in the ass on stage and we met X during the show.
She was intended to be a playmate to torture me while J was away.
There was a falling out between J, X and myself. And I chose to go with X.
Well, for the first 5 years or so, all was good. She would regularly torture, Fist, and fuck me, we would make porn together.
Then she started not wanting to play anymore. Then she started getting sick.
I need the kink in my life.
With her sick etc. I could not just leave her, I became essentially a caretaker for her. No kink, no sex, pretty much just roommates.
I am at a loss as to what to do next.
